Sunday, September 22, 2013

The year 2012 that went by

4th of July

Goofing around
Nicks bday with his favorite dish crabs and macaroni 
This is post Gus bday
Jewish Tony lol
Zoey cute overbite
Olivia's bday at CPK in Beverly Hills and the desert at corrados home

My bday... Flowers from Nick and my Amiga Esthella... Nick as the chef... 
Cake and gifts from Nick, Olivia, Gus, Tony, Zoey, and my friend Karen.
In between my friends JP and Lauren's wedding and Holloween..........................
A lil drama here and there.... Found true friends.... Then Christmas brings true miracle.

Monday, September 5, 2011

fighting depression

wiki describe:

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behaviour, feelings and physical well-being.[1]Depressed people may feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, or restless. They may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable, experience loss of appetite or overeating, or problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions; and may contemplate or attempt suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment may be present.[2]
Depressed mood is a normal reaction to certain life events, a symptom of many medical conditions (e.g., Addison's diseasehypothyroidism), and a feature of certain psychiatric syndromes.
whooa, the last part can be pretty scary right?
 hold it...hold it....
I know whether you're in AA or GA, the first step is admittance and if I were to play doctor to myself, my diagnosis or in laymans term the thing that I'm going through is just mood disorders or clinical depression PERIOD.
So how does this depression go by in our internal system?
Depression is associated with changes in substances in the brain that help nerve cells communicate (neurotransmitters), such as serotonindopamine and norepinephrine. The levels of these neurotransmitters can be influenced by, among other things, physical illnesses, genetics, hormonal changes, medications, aging, brain injuries, seasonal/light cycle changes, and social circumstances.[5]
So many factors to pin point why a certain person is going through a certain depression right? And my best bet for my own depressing moments caters to work and relationships. But now I'm done running, hiding from it... I'll face this demon on my own!
Acceptance is the first step, and I just have to go the process and work through it so I can heal and be happy on my own again.
My choice of getting beating it is to make a gratitude journal and physical exercise.
Go Leah

the closest to happiness I have now

my pursuit of happiness took a detour, I thought if I can be with 'someone special' I'd be happier but that is another story... (fyi been battling depression for weeks now so please bear with me I'm literally counting my blessings)

let me focus on one simple idea that by drinking a cold beverage like Coke where it can be as refreshing as it's poured on glass with ice that frizzy-sizzle with bubbles reaches your hands... and eventually quenching your thirst for something sweet foamy soda...
you (just) can't beat the feelin' ahhhhh
a few campaigns by Coke...
and now i have my own campaign,
that its time to open myself once more to HAPPINESS that there is.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Honesty is such a lonely word

Everyone is so untrue...
Thanks Billy Joel

Why did I think of that?
I know of a few people who do not want to hear the truth. Deliberately making our lives difficult by ignoring the signs and hoping it will go away, by keeping quiet, it will not change the truth.
Knowing the truth is better no matter how painful it might be because, at least, we can address it.
Experience is a great teacher indeed, we have to see for ourselves, we have to make our own mistakes, and we have to learn our lessons. We have to rob today’s possibility to finally understand for ourselves.

That knowing is better than wondering,

That sometimes you just have to forgive ourselves,

That it is better to love and lost than to never have love at all.

I don't want to be afraid anymore.
I don't want to live in what if... but what is and what now

Saturday, June 5, 2010

work on progress

to the new and improve version of Marcos

She's still workaholic...
the great friend,
loves the beach,
loves diversity,
keeps on smiling,
not afraid of a challenge,
loves to sing,
dances like nobody is watching,
loves her independence,
loves life and living it to the fullest,
laughs heartily,
and above all, has a Great relationship with God!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Its A First Time

PLEASE WATCH....... Its A First Time on March 27 on Zirkoh Tomas Morato...

Party with Mark Herras, Aicelle Santos, Maricris Garcia, Jonalyn Viray, Kris Lawrence, Chariz Solomon and Ms. Regine Tolentino... with the Speed dancers